My dearest Isaacs,
My dear friend, I would like to tell you about a love. A love I have in my heart for a brave girl. She is full of light, love, compassion and patience. It took me a while to see it. I saw it only when her light disappeared. Which is such a shame. She was the kind of person that you don't appreciate when she's there. She becomes a routine, but without her, you realize, that life is unbearable...
I will be honest, Isaacs. I do not know what true love is. I keep taking people for granted and love them only after I push them away. I have come to terms with who I am, so I live with it. But she was a true light, a true friend. A loss to this world. She had forgiveness in her heart. She forgave all them who did her wrong and gave them second chances to redeem themselves. People who have hurt her both emotionally as well as physically. She had courage in her heart to let her pain go. Forgive her trespassers. All of them. All but me.
I don't know what I keep mumbling on about, my friend. I guess I miss her a bit. She never did let me help her carry the weight. I wish she would have. Pride is a harmful thing. It will tear your soul apart if you let it. On the other hand if she would have let me in, her stories would have angered me. I would have wanted to tear down the walls of the men who harmed her. Thinking back though, I never really knew how to see her. How to understand her. How to love her. I tried wrapping my mind around it but I guess some things were never meant to be.
She is a beautiful soul, Isaacs. She truly is. And I love her with all my heart. And I wish she is loved today as she does deserve. So with this last token of love, I would like say goodbye to her. To wish her well. And if she is to cross my path in the far future, I would smile and mourn for the moments that we could have had. For I truly did love her.
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